musicangel88

11:10 pm: Stressed

I'm feeling so stressed right now on my Music Fundamentals homework. I went to a couple of my friends but they said they don't get it so now I'm getting worried. 

I won't have time to get help cause I'm so busy tomorrow with classes and work and then doing other homework tomorrow night. I wish it's spring break already so I can go home and stuff.

I guess I have no choice but to turn in the homework late. I think it's best than guessing and then receiving a bad grade.

I don't know I'm just so stressed right now on this stupid homework.

09:00 pm: It's been a long time since I last wrote, I've been busy lately with school and facebooking my friends. I just got a facebook this week, my roommate Julie helped me sign in facebook. I've been facebooking lately, especially Ben. We've been talking to each other lately on the phone, facebook and e-mail. I told him how I felt about him and he liked me back. I'm so exited to start dating if it's gonna work out. He invited me to his senior prom I'm so exited for that. I better start loosing weight right now. But yeah I hope it works out between us cause I'm in Council Bluffs and he'll be going to college in Missouri. He's a senior in high school in Des Moines and I met him at my cousins All-State choir concert in November then when I went to Des Moines last weekend we've been talking and getting to know each other more. We've been talking for 3 hours on my visit. I'm so exited to see him again. I'm planning to go back to Des Moines on my spring break so we can see each other again. 

School and work are going well, I won't work until Wednesday. I'm at home right now seeing my parents and then going back to Council Bluffs sometime tomorrow afternoon cause I have some homework to do. 

Well this is all for now.

09:35 pm: My Weekend is going very well so far, I went to Des Moines last night to see my cousins perform and they did a great job. But today was kind of sad for a moment cause my uncle told me that theres bad weather tomorrow morning and he thought it was best for me to head back to Council Bluffs tonight instead of tomorrow morning and I agreed with him (it's better to be safe than sorry). But I'm back safe in sound with no trouble. But I wanted to stay longer, oh well maybe some other time in the spring, that will be easier than in the winter time.

But last night after my cousins show, I bumped into their friend I've met last time. We've met at their All-State Choir concert, his name is Ben and he's a gentlemen and so sweet. Anyway after the concert we've been talking a lot. We've talked about 3 hours last night, we were getting to know each other more. But I have a feeling that he likes me, I can tell by the look of his face. I think I kind of like him too. Then we talked on the phone about 2 hours tonight. We were gonna see each other tonight but because of my plans changed I called him then and we kept on talking and talking.

Hes a senior in high school, plays a trombone, sings in choir and he love sports. I told him everything I do and stuff. I think hes funny, sensitive, caring, and sweet. Hope we see each other again soon.

I better go, thought I do some homework and then I gotta get ready for work tomorrow.

09:27 pm: Hello,

My day went okay, I surprised my friend today and told her Happy Valentines Day!!!!. I gave her flowers and a beautiful card, and she loved it, I felt like I want to give her more stuff like a cute teddy bear or something else but I'm trying to save money for school next year and something else important. I don't want my parents giving me the money talk again(they told me more than twice). 

I just had an argument with one of my roommates, I really don't want to talk about it. It's kind of silly argument but I don't want to talk to her right now. We'll get over it somehow. 

I'm not also looking forward to Valentines Day, I'm so glad I'm working that day, then after work me and my other single friends are going to a late night show. Hopefully I don't have too much homework and have lots of time to get packed up for my trip to Des Moines this weekend. I'm so exited cause when I woke up this morning I felt likes it's Thursday but it's not. I just want the weekend to come. 

Gotta finish homework, see ya dearies.

10:11 pm: My Day
My Day went super busy with classes and show choir performance tonight. But I'm also busy on the rest of the week. I work tomorrow night from 6 to 10, Thursday from 3:30 to 7:30, and Sunday from 12-4. I'm still looking forward to this next coming weekend, going to Des Moines to visit my aunt is gonna be great. I haven't seen her since Christmas. I love my family very much I'm so close to them but it sucks so bad that they live so far away from me around Iowa. I see some of them 3 times a year but the rest is once a year. But at least I have really good friends here at school.

I think I did alright on my Public Speaking test, I left one question blank cause I have no idea about the question and plus I was out of time to finish, I hope I passed. If not I'll cry so bad and I might go to a tutor for help (whenever I need it). I want this week to go by fast again so I can work and then getting ready for Des Moines.

I gotta go, see ya later dearies

10:11 pm: My Day
My Day went super busy with classes and show choir performance tonight. But I'm also busy on the rest of the week. I work tomorrow night from 6 to 10, Thursday from 3:30 to 7:30, and Sunday from 12-4. I'm still looking forward to this next coming weekend, going to Des Moines to visit my aunt is gonna be great. I haven't seen her since Christmas. I love my family very much I'm so close to them but it sucks so bad that they live so far away from me around Iowa. I see some of them 3 times a year but the rest is once a year. But at least I have really good friends here at school.

09:16 pm: I hope everyone had a good weekend, I had a great weekend (sort of). Right now I'm feeling a little nervous about this test tomorrow in Public Speaking class. I'm glad it's open book but I have this feeling the questions might be hard and it might take me the whole 50 minute class to find an answer. It's a shout answer and true or false quiz. I love true or false but I hate short answer questions. I didn't pay attention very much in the class, I gotta pay attention more so I can understand the chapter and the teacher. I hate doing that, how could I be a music teacher if I don't pay attention about how to speak to the students and stuff. I don't like short answer questions because I have grammar problems and also having trouble of thinking of how to write an answer. I feel like I'm gonna be sick. I want to get sick tomorrow but I can't cause I have a show choir performance tomorrow night and I have to be there for my solo. Oh well I guess I gotta have to face the music and do my best on that test. I wish we could have more that 50 minutes to do the test. I'm sure everyone else is feeling the same way and don't feel like studying.

I'm so exited for next weekend cause I'm going to Des Moines to visit my aunt, uncle, and cousins. My cousin Rachel and Sam are having a music contest and I'm gonna go to that. I'm so exited to see them sing. I love going to music concerts cause I love music and thats what I wanna do. I hope this week goes by really fast again so I can get ready to get out of here.

I better finish homework,

bye bye my dearies

09:00 pm: Thank goodness it's Friday and the weekend is here. But I might be a little bored tomorrow and part of Sunday. I decided not to go home and go to Des Moines, I was going to at first but my relatives said they are free part of the day but then they have to take me to wrestling meet and stuff and I hate wrestling but my cousins are having a singing contest next Friday night so I'm planning to go to Des Moines next weekend, I'm so exited for next weekend. But right now I don't know what my plans are for tomorrow or the rest of the weekend. I think my Mom is going to a friends house to help her paint so I might do that so I can find something to do for tomorrow and have time to study for my public speaking test. I have this nervous feeling I might fail cause I didn't pay attention very much in class. I hate doing that cause then I'm not learning anything and I know how embarrassing that would be. At least it's an open book test (thank goodness) but I'm not very good on answering short answer questions and sometimes true or false. I hope I do fine on that test and the class. Work is going great, I'm still in training and I have to work 3 days next week, especially Valentines Day. I'm really glad I'm working on Valentines day cause I don't have to worry about people making out or telling me stories about love, their boyfriends or other disgusting love stuff. My roommate had this great idea about inviting all women who are single to go to a late night movie. I love that idea a lot, hopefully we can do that as soon as I get off work. I'm planning not to go home till spring break or whenever I feel like coming home. Sometimes I don't have enough time for friends cause of my classes, homework, and work. I hope someday I'll have a time to be with my friends, it just sucks so bad that I want to have some fun but because of this stupid test Monday in Public Speaking and other homework on my other classes. I'm so exited for this summer, I need to go swim suit shopping sometime in the spring so I can go swimming. I haven't swam in a long time I believe it was my sophomore year of swim team. I'm so exited for June cause I'm going on a trip with my best friend and her family to Minnesota, I'm not sure what day it is but I'll be ready.

This is all for now, see ya later dearies.

07:07 pm: This is a snowy day today, at least I survived school and I didn't have to work today. I was gonna ready to go to work but I received a call from my manager and told me the checker training is canceled tonight and she'll call me sometime to reschedule training. So I'm kind of glad about that so I can have more time to do homework and goof around.  I'm getting really tired of snow, I want spring and warm weather so I don't have to worry about going to work in a snow storm. I'm sure all of you are feeling the same way.

I better go, I'll see you dearies later.

07:24 pm: Hello Dearies,

I kind of had a great day, not bad but great. I'm so happy I didn't say my speech today for speech class. I hope my classmates love my speech. I was thinking of saying some things about my passion in music.

I'm a little bumped that I was suppose to perform tonight for show choir but it got canceled cause of the weather. I won't perform till next Monday. But right after my last class, everybody at the suites were outside cause there was a fire in the suites. My room wasn't on fire, it's fine (thank goodness) it was one of the new buildings that was by my suite though. Something must of happened while the construction workers were working or something. But nobody got trapped or anything so I'm really glad. But I'm a little nervous for more training at work, I think they're going to train me on the register. I'm sure I'll be fine.

I better go and do homework. I'll talk more later.

10:45 pm: My Sunday
I just got back from seeing "THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA" and it was awesome. I love going to Broadway shows, I've seen 4 shows so far. I think my #1 favorite show so far is "WICKED". I saw that show in London and it was great. The other shows I've seen is "BEAUTY AND THE BEAST", "MAMA MIA", and "THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA". I went with my mother and a couple of her girlfriends. They are all really nice. We went to dinner at Applebees and it was delicious, I saw my friend at the show so I thought I say Hi to her during intermission. I met her best friend tonight and she seems really nice. I know shes majoring in nursing and very friendly. Thats how I love when I meet new friends. I'm sad now that the weekend is over, this weekend went by really fast I can't believe tomorrow is Monday and I'm so busy tomorrow with 5 classes and then I have a show choir performance tomorrow night. Then Tuesday night I'm busy cause I have to work from 6 to 10. But I'm free the rest of the week (I hope I don't work on any of those days). I hope I have next weekend off cause I want to go to Des Moines to see my aunt, uncle and cousins. I haven't seen them for a month and I thought I take a nice drive to Des Moines to see them for a weekend.

Well I gotta go, have a good night to all of you.

10:04 pm: Feb. 1 2008
My day went okay, I just got done watching a movie with my roommates and some friends. We watched "Just Like Heaven" that movie is one of my favorites. The ending is my favorite where she found a beautiful garden she wanted and remembered David and kissed. I'm so sad that I don't have a man yet. I had a boyfriend on my freshman year of High school and he was terrible. I felt so embarrassed when I dated him. He was nothing but trouble with fights, smokes, and drinks (I can't stand cigarette smoke, it smells terrible). 

But anyway about my day, I felt really bad for my best friend. She's having a rough week and I felt terrible.  It's just some guy problem and I say she should forget about him. If he's gonna treat you terrible like that I say don't date him. I just don't understand why some boys treat women so terrible, why can't they treat them with respect and goes with the plan and changes it at the last minute or worse, uses his or her friend to call the date and let him or her that they can't come because of a party or something. That is so ridiculus I hate it how he treated my friend like that I feel like I want to go to him and give him a slap in the face. I hate it how much he hurts her feelings, it makes me sad and angry when she told me everything. I felt so terrible I want to help her, be with her and tell her how much I love her and best of all being her friend. I would never hurt her, I'm a caring person thats what I love to do.

I want to pray to God to help my best friend and he'll always be with her whenever she's hurt, struggling with school or anything else.

HEAVENLY FATHER,

I WANT TO PRAY TONIGHT TO ALL MY GOOD FRIENDS AND FAMILY ESPECIALLY MY BEST FRIEND I'VE MET FROM SCHOOL. BUT RIGHT NOW LORD I WANT YOU TO BE WITH HER AND HER FAMILY CAUSE SHE HAD A ROUGH WEEK AND I WANT TO PRAY THAT I WANT HER TO BE OKAY AND I KNOW YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HER. I WANT TO PRAY THE SAME THING I'M SAYING TO EVERYBODY ELSE WHO IS HURT, STRESSED, OR DESPERATELY NEEDS YOU MORE. I WANT HER AND EVERYBODY IN THIS WORLD TO BE ALRIGHT AND I WANT TO BE WITH THEM ALWAYS NO MATTER WHAT. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE MY FRIEND AND BE WITH HER NO MATTER WHAT SHE STRUGGLES AND BEING A GOOD FRIEND TO HER AND HER FAMILY. THEY ARE ALL REALLY WONDERFUL AND ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WHETHER I'M HURT, STRUGGLING WITH SCHOOL OR BORED.

IN JESUS NAME

AMEN.

I made up that prayer is because I care so much of everybody I've known or some people I'll meet someday.

This is all for now, I'll talk to you later.

11:02 am: Knowing about Me
Hello, I'm Emily and I'm from Fremont Nebraska. My best friend I've met from choir told me about this website and so I decided to give it a try since I love writing journals. It's been a while since I wrote on a journal, the last time I wrote on my journal was my Europe trip. I went to Europe last summer with this music group called "NEBRASKA AMBASSADORS OF MUSIC" we were gone almost the whole month of June visiting 7 countries. I want to tell you more about my trip later but right now I want to tell you about me. 

I'm 19 and I'm a first year college student at Iowa Western Community College.  I really love it and Council Bluffs, I've met a lot of cool friends on campus (they are somehow nicer then my friends in Fremont). Well I mean some of my High School friends are really nice and I love them but sometimes they don't have time for me or I don't have time for them. 

I have lots of best friends (especially Teresa). My roomates are really nice and funny, one of my roomate cackles a lot like a witch and she makes me laugh a lot. 

This is all for now, but I'll write more later my dearies.